rasanya ingin sekali aku, MeLukis.

rasanya ingin sekali aku,
kembali menggores-gores kanvas, meLukis.
Bukan, bukan seperti yg kau bayangkan,
bukan dengan kuas-kuas atau pensil-pensil,
atau penghapus dari roti,
yang serpihannya akan bersisa menaburi bagian dalam Lengan kemejamu.
Bukan seperti itu.

MeLukis kata seperti ini.
MenuLis puisi,
Lagi.



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Monday

I'm gonna push myseLf away,
away from everything but for Monday.

I want to hoLd Monday so tightLy,
because I miss you so badLy.

because nobody do,
owh Monday it's onLy you...

who seem to be missing me,
oh yes it's onLy Monday I see!

Come to think of everything afteraLL.
I just want Monday or nothing at aLL.

Dear God, pLease take good care my dear Monday,
UntiL the D day so nothing more I can say.



ApriL 3rd 2010. 11.19pm for my dear Mr.Monday

If you accidentaLLy arrive here

If you accidentaLLy arrive here,
You might sense the dark atmosphere,
If you accidentaLLy arrive here,
Don't turn away, oh pLease don't dissapear.

If you accidentaLLy read the Lines,

You might wonder why couLdn't u sense the signs,

If you accidentaLLy read these Lines,

Oh pLease keep reading, don't just resign.

I'm so tired of rhyming,

but I found it's so entertaining.

Instead of them keep on criticizing,

I wish it's somehow the better way of saying things.

You know my head is spinning,

I toLd you I couLdn't do the thinking,

I've been so tired of so many unimportant things.

If you accidentaLLy come by,

I just want you to know the reason why,

If you accidentaLLy come by,

I just want you to capture me in the eye.

If you accidentaLLy Lost around,

I hope you can here the sound,

If you accidentaLLy Lost around,

I hope it's me that you wiLL found.

If you accidentaLLy arrive here,

I just want to say it crystaL cLear,

That I reaLLy Love you're just being near,

And I'm gLad that you're come over here, dear.

1:31 pm. CompLeted Nov 24th 2009.

We aLL need more space...that's the start.

we aLL need more Gygabytes, Terabytes. The peopLe is growing, but the worLd remains in its size. Soon, there won't be enough pLace for aLL of us. I know it might sound absurd to you.

Anyone who thinks they can be pretty comfortabLe Living in the worLd, they're wrong. I toLd you, the worLd is not enough. The worLd is just a drop of water in a big big ocean. No, it's even smaLLer than 1 LittLest drop. The big big ocean, Let say the biggest ocean in the worLd, the Largest water in the worLd, it is stiLL has Limit, because it is IN the worLd, which is not unLimited. The worLd is is even Less-precious than the tiniest dust. There won't be any formuLa, no mathematicaL formuLa couLd represent "the worLd" to "the afterworLd" (which can be represented by the "unLimited" symboL).

So, how can anyone be so sure, and think for certainty that the worLd and the word "comfortabLe" or perhaps "happiness" are equaL? The worLd cannot be compared to the afterworLd. Thus, it can never be equaL, Living here and Living in the herafter.

sue me here, not in the hereafter.

What kind of tot is that??!
to keep ur hurts inside aLL by urseLf, just don't say it, don't convey it, don't do anything.
keep it aLL, keep it aLL urseLf, keep it down deep inside ur heart.
bring it to ur graveyard.
and then...



SUE THE PERSON WHO HURTS YOU, IN THE HEREAFTER, MAKE THEM BROKE.



weLL, I'm not such a person. I wiLL sue anyone here, I'LL say what I want to say, I'LL try to fix things here, and I hope anyone wouLd just sue me here, not in the hereafter.

phobia

the day before yesterday,
i struggLed upon buying and making one for myseLf.
i dread the effect of buying,
and moreover,
the buying option was automaticaLLy disabLed, due to the access.
so i decided to make it one for myseLf,
and i chose sumthing way more better than i used to get.
but the decision turned out wrong,
God, it breaks my heart.

yesterday,
i faced the same probLem.
and i decided to to take option B again,
because i tot the effect of option A wouLd be worse than the day before yesterday,
aLL upon circumstances: i was too vuLnerabLe to took any other option.
but the decision turned out wrong, again.
I'm getting used to it,
to be aLways-wrong.
i aLways was.

today,
i reaLize i have a phobia.
it's aLmost the time,
for me to take decision again.
i've been toLd to take another, option C, onLy it supposed to be done before today.
so i know,
whatever decision i wiLL take today,
it wiLL be the faLse one.

You have no idea

Before i got into that room,
I was so sure about what she wouLd say,
because I can sense it.
I knew aLready if it is too big or if it is too weak.

and the fact that it's way 99times bigger than it supposed to be,
nobody take it for granted,
everybody just keep on saying that i've been crueL,
and that I onLy care about myseLf,
and that I'm seLfish,
and that I never even try...

oh it hurts me so bad.


Oh God, they reaLLy have no idea.
You Are The ALL-Knowing.

No angeL baby!

One more time I hear anyone toLd me that again,
I wiLL....










I don't know what I wouLd do!
I just want to say, that there is no angeL here,
we're aLL human, human, human, human!
c'mon wake up!
no matter how bad, no matter how amazing...
we are aLL just human being.
you're just questioning God about your fate, you better be carefuLL, that's dangerous, indeed.